I'm sick. I didn't go to school today. I sneezed and coughed for like 1000 times for the last 2 days. I think staying at home is quite unproductive. I slept for the whole morning and went to coro and spent the whole afternoon waiting in the clinic -.-! . I think I should go to school 2mr.
Talked to my father yesterday and just now about malay dance. He talked a lot, about why i shouldn't quit malay dance and asked me to stay. I hate it. I hate being forced to do things I don't want to. My parents always force me to do things. I know that they just want to do good for me. But I think this time they are wrong. I need to give my own decision now. Everyone knows that I'm the kind of person, that when forced to do anything I don't want to, will try to ruin it. Thank all of you for your advice. Now I have decided. I will tell mrs tan when she comes back.
I'm very very stressed and tired and angry now. Pls don't disturb me.

I'm very tired now. I think I'm sick. I'm having headache and sore throat. But I cannot and don't want to skip school 2mr because of moot court + NAPFA + NJCG. I should go and rest now :(
Edited: We r not going to have NAPFA because of the parliament trip.

I'm very confused now. Actually I wanted to write this post yesterday but I forgot :P. Basically it's about Malay Dance, and about whether I want to quit now, quit after Aristal, or don't quit at all. Yesterday after dance I talked to Xiao Ying and Ms Chen. I nearly cried when I said why I want to quit Malay Dance. So they said I need to decide whether to quit now or after Aristal, because I cannot be just unhappy and don't dance and affect other people. It's hard for me to decide now. So I seriously need advice now, constructive plz. If u r my friend, plz give me some advice. Tks XD

Ok we lost. The DotA game. Actually we weren't that bad. We didn't really have any problems for the game. Hieu even got first blood, with the help from me. But the fact is that, their teamwork is better. And I think I have made a mistake choosing heroes. Lady luck is not on our side. I got frustrated and yelled my teammates a lot. Sorry but I get frustrated quite easy. K nvm, we will try harder next time, I mean 2mr. 2mr we will have the aid from the lame ex councilor teow. His skill is quite good and we can believe in a victory XD. 2mr match is from 4-5, Bytz. Anyone want to come down just come.
2mr is NAPFA. I don't know I should be happy or sad. I had gold for last year, but this year I don't think I can pass because of pull up :( .

I'm busy doing Geog now but I still need to keep this blog alive XD.
We have to pay $300 + for OBS >:( . It is $200 more than last year for 2 extra days of torturing ourselves in the middle of the sea. Quote: Jade: " It's like 2/3 of three months of our allowance! "
, Jac: " Is that 2 months of your allowance? ". This time we are going together with 01 and 02, so I guess I will be with quite a lot of people from our class XD.
We have changed our seating arrangement XD. I'm sitting with Lisa and Dawn :) . And now I'm in the middle of the class. Now I cannot throw my rubbish from my seat anymore. I cannot poke Lawrence and he pokes back and we both become Pokemon anymore. I cannot move my desk up and down (accelerate and decelerate as Emily said) freely anymore. I miss the back row with all the lameness and chaos we created for the class. I miss listening to Lawrence and Justin quarrel with each other like a bird and a pig. Nvm, things must change.
Just read nghia's blog. He asked: "One quitter and one who takes back what he said, who is worse?". Everyone said the he has made a good decision to stay back. So he has quitted quitting XD. And I'm the only f****** quitter, loser who drop out in the middle. I still keep my decision.
I'm planning to be a more f****** quitter. I'll just keep all of this in this blog. I 'll not say it to anyone. I'll only say it after aristal. I'll just go to training as normal. I'll quit so fast that people don't talk much about it. Luckily, so far noone from Malay Dance has found this, except for the Vietnamese boys, so I can still keep it as a secret. I admit that I'm afraid if everyone talks to me about it, I will change my decision, like nghia did. Sorry but I really really don't want to change my decision. That's all, please understand.

School today was as boring as the normal Monday. It is still the IH+Geog+Maths combo that I stoned for the whole periods. PE was the most interesting period. We did standing board jump and pull up. I did about 255 or something like that for sbj regardless of my oversize ankle :), and 1 pull up :(. I will try to do 3 when the real napfa comes. Oh I forgot about lunch. Mr Nah and Ms Khoo treated us today with pizzas and chicken wings for lunch :D. Thank you, I love u so much :). However i still needed to eat some more for lunch.
Dance started at 6 o'clock and I came back at 9+ :| . It's quite ok actually but we did some weird thing today. I don't want to talk about it. You may know when aristal comes or you may never know :D.
Oh, and Justin had a new hair cut. Quote: Emily: "Your head look like a pineapple!". It might be because when the barber asked him what his favourite fruit was and he said pineapple. I wonder what it will look like if he said watermelon XD

I felt down during dance today. I thought I could dance with my swollen ankle but I really cannot. It was worse than what I thought. That's why I only danced for basket dance, and had to stay out for contemp.
Watched all the dances for Aristal today. Personally I think Malay Dance is not prepared yet. Our performance were disorganized and anti-climax, and the dancers are not confident. Western Dance are still as good as they were. Their juniors' dance was quite impressive, knowing that they are all IP1s and J1S (+ the IP2s who just joined this year). The funny part was when the song went "low, low, low" then everyone sat down and tai wan stood up there - it's not low at all XD. Indian dance was okay and Chinese Dance also. But one of the Chinese Dance's performance, the one consists of only the guys, are quite gay :D.
After the whole preview, I went home alone. Then it started to rain when I was walking. I was wet and helpless cos I couldn't run X(. Then Ms Selva and her sister drove by and gave me a lift :). Her sister is an ex-NJCian, and she is quite talkative. She talked about the council should give umbrellas to the students on raining days X), and she is actually not Ms Selva's sister but her driver :). After getting back to my room, I slept for the whole afternoon :P. Then I decided to go for dinner, and I took half an hour to find my wallet on the floor >:(.
P.S: my ankle size has decreased :D

I'm lame. Today after running 4 rounds + 3 x 100m sprint, we played soccer against 06. At first it was 6 v 6. Then because 06 has quang, the soccer player, so we decided to put one more in our team. But we just added and added and somehow played 10 v 10 or something like that in a basketball court. U can imagine how crowded it was. If u dribble, u will face 2 guys every metre. And if u shoot from half court, the probability of scoring is zero. And the floor is very slippery. If u run for 1m, u can only stop after 3m . That's why I'm lame now. I twisted my ankle after trying to get the ball. I just stuck my leg out and it just went by itself and twisted. My right ankle is now 3 times bigger than the left one. And by using 1 hand to hold the ice pack onto it, I'm actually typing this post with 1 hand only XD. I know I'm lame now but no problem, there are still people lamer than me. And to those who keep complaining about me getting lame (namely Jing Ho, Jac Soo, and Jade) : Don't discriminate against lame people >:( .
P.S: I lied. There is still a problem cos we are doing NAPFA next week :(

I shall be emo later, not now XD.
We are being used as walking advertisement! Today we are forced to wear the stupid njc ip preview t shirt instead of our lovely polo t shirt >:(. It doesn't make sense cos we are showing it to the one who is definitely not going for ip preview (namely the ip3,4, jc1,2) and then not showing it to the one who need to see :o. But there is one advantage of wearing it, we don't need to tuck in XD.
Lessons are quite ok today. I stoned for the whole geog and chem. Played tic tac toe with ryan, lawrence, jing ho, zhou yuen, nikos and won most of the time :D. Ryan and me thought of hosting a inter-class tic tac toe competition for raising fund XD. Then I learned how to play bridge and lost most of the time lol.
Ok done. Now is all about Malay Dance. Those who are not interested please skip.
Today we listened to Xiao Ying and Mrs Tan talking about the problem. They talked a lot about how to change the CCA. But that's not the point. I decided to quit cos I don't feel like and don't want to be involved already.
The problem now is about people in the CCA is not in 1 group. Malay Dance now consist of a whole bunch of guys and n bunches of girls (i don't know the exact number but it's more than 1) . And they train separately, dance separately. Every training has a format. People came, warm up, may be together, may be not. Being brief by the SLs then the guys go other place, do their own thing. The girl stay there (wherever it is), also do their own thing. Then after 3 hours they get their bags and rush home. It has always been like that since the start of the year. I will be surprised if we don't get bored.
We not only train separately, but also dance separately. It is always: girls dance, come out, then guys come in, dance, come out, then girls come in, dance, come out, etc (u get the point). I'm not blaming cikgu for choreographing it like that. Even if guys dance with girls on stage, we look like two different groups cos we don't train together! I personally don't know what the girls do during their training, but what we do is the same and the same and the same. And even though we do the same and the same and the same, they still give different and different and different comments (wth!).
Ok I admitted I didn't do a good job for a SL. I slacked a lot, played a lot, fooled around a lot. I set a bad image for others. I got scolded and still never change. It is because I have given up trying. I don't want to do, u force me also I still don't do. It is because I have no more willing to dance, or, to be with Malay Dance . Yes, I had fun, but it was always with the guys. I rarely talked to the girls, really. I don't even know some of their names. It is very easy to find out but I don't want to, just like that. Because I will probably never talk to them. As I said above, we come, warm up, go other place, train, then rush back home, where got time to talk?
I have a different feeling while dancing now. Before, I felt proud of what I did and enjoyed the dance. Because it deserved being enjoyed. Now I dance, feeling embarrassed when ppl look at me, because I feel that dancing Malay Dance is somehow strange, hilarious, ridiculous. I am not brave enough to dance, that's it. Sorry.
Sorry Xiao Ying I don't want to hurt you but I personally think that Ferleen has done a better job. I know it is also under other circumstances like the group is bigger, Mrs Tan is busier, we don't have venues etc, but the way Ferleen managed the group is different. To me and I think other Vietnamese also, Ferleen is like a friend, a big sister, and a president in its true meaning. I am not opposing anyone, but I really cannot list out the exco members of last year. I think it's because ferleen can take everything on her own so she has a very big impact. The way the CCA is being managed has a lot of problems. Being an exco, I should be the one who bring up and try to change, but like I said before, I gave up already. Sorry.
I really miss the seniors. Dance was always fun last year.I remembered how much I wanted to dance when I just joined Malay Dance. We learned new steps, danced together and had fun together. No matter how hard we trained for SYF and Aristal, I still tried my best and always enjoyed the dance. The sweet feeling of dancing is now gone. It is now tasteless, leaving me in the dance. And that's why I need to leave.
Aristal is coming. I refused to dance for combine dance when I was asked. So what's left is that I only dance for 2 mins in traditional and about the same amount in the comtemp dance. I feel quite sad that I actually had no performance this year. CNY doesn't count. It doesn't have a quality of a real performance. Then that's it. What I have achieved this year is actually none. I didn't regretted anything, from joining to staying here. This is not anyone's fault. Life is just like that. I only accept it and move on.

Today is a stupid half day. I went to school only for chem and 10 mins of history.We got the IP preview Tshirt. The front is nice (Mr Nah said he designed it -_-!), but the back is 10 times uglier. Walked out of school with ryan, law, jingho, jac. Went to coro to take money and then went back to sleep XD. Today Malay Dance ppl had lunch together and I decided not to go... Doing chem at the moment, trying not to be lazy :D.

I'm so tired. Slept at 2 o'clock, did 2.4, and then had dance. I should be sleeping right now but i need to keep this blog living.
I stayed up until 2 a.m trying to finish the IH assignment. I was so sleepy that I cannot concentrate on it. zzz
Today we do 2.4. I finished in 11:12 XD. Actually it's not that good compare to Lawrence's 8:22 >:( but still exceeding my expectation. I improved for 1 minute since last year. I personally think it is because of Lawrence's shoes :D thanks Lol.
Dance today is quite boring as normal. I am going to quit Malay Dance after Aristal this year and join badminton. I had a hard time deciding to quit. It is like I have no more inspiration for dance already. I don't even remember the names of the newcomers :(. The CCA is going down, I must say. Mrs Tan does not come down so often these days, and people are not bonding together. However I didn't regret joining Malay Dance. Dance was always fun. I remembered how much I wanted to dance last year, especially for SYF and Aristal. But after Ferleen's badge stepped down, I felt some kind of sadness and that I would not stay here for my whole 4 years in NJ. Nvm forget about it, i don't want to be emo :). I will go to sleep now.
Thanks Law for ur shoes. Thanks Jingho for ur PE T-shirt, I will wash it for u lol.
P.S: 2mr is half day! Yay
P.S2: and I only go to school for 1 period lol

today is so boring. i slept through the whole day z z z
P.S argh i just realized i need 2 do IH assignment

Today was both a great and stupid day. In the morning I borrowed Law's shoes to run. OMG they are so comfortable. It is, according to Lawrence, the best brand in Singapore. After I ran I didn't want to wear my shoes anymore XD.
Chem was great. I managed to lit up the bulb with H2O2 and toilet cleaner :D. Lisa left at the beginning of first period, so I was made to do it alone. First time I tried, it didn't even lit up a LED. Then I threw away everything, still the same. Then third time I used the same solution and the old metals then it worked X). Then I was like "Ms Chin Ms Chin" Then she said" OK" even though she didn't look at it for 10 seconds :D. Lawrence also created a bottle of lemon cocacola.
Then we went back to class. Me, Lawrence, Justin were playing with the tennis ball when Justin knocked the ball to the lemon coke bottle XD. It was so funny. It is the first time I hear Justin say "f" word lol.
Dance was so stupid. I only brought my tshirt and forgot to bring my pants. Then all the boys realized they never returned their costume. I was the one who went back to hostel and took them because I was still in uniform >:(
I'm so sleepy now cos I only slept for 4 hours yesterday.Damn it I still have training tmr. I will go to sleep now XD zzz